An ailing notebook

My notebook is acting weird lately. I guess a malicious malware has infected its system which greatly affected the performance its performance. A performance comparable to a limp horse. So I decided to check on what’s inside it. I was so amazed to see that most of the contents are my collections of music, my photos and some foreign languages I used to study. Those files I thought would be futile were dragged towards the trash bin.

The files were very important to me so I wanted to save a backup copy of it. My 4GB flash drive won’t be enough so I took some of my DVDr to save the files. Bang! I was dismayed to discover that my disk drive is not working fine. Hmmm. I don’t wanna buy another flash drive knowing that it won’t be sufficient to save all my files. But the price of external hard drive is out of my budget for now. Darn, I am left with no option but to be contented with not so commendable performance of my notebook for now until I procure an external drive and bring my notebook to the nearest service center.

One thing more, no more notebook in the office. And I have to learn how to use ubunto then. Let’s see how fast I can have this notebook get repaired. What about a month? A month would be fine then.

I’m back

After a month of silence, of not updating my personal blog, at long last I finally find sometime to sit and work my nuts out. Whew..

I’ve been busy with my personal life lately, trying to test some waters to see if it works for me. But then again, at the end of the day, I found myself succumb to sleep all by myself.

After all, I come to realize that I don’t need someone to be completely happy because I can be happier even I taking a solo flight, which I used to live.

Expect more regular updates on my blog moving forward.

Catch me I’m fallin’

What is this I’m feeling I just can’t explain… When you call it feels not the same… I tried to hide it.. try not to show it.. it’s crazy… how could this be…… I’m falling for you.. finally my heart give in and I’m falling in love… I finally know how it’s been.. so this is love.. 😉

Mama’s boy no more

Call me mama’s boy. I won’t refute but give you a grin because I know it’s true. Indeed I am a mama’s boy. That was before when I still see my mom. I can even recall sleeping under her armpit (weird but it’s true). But not anymore after my mom’s death last year. Oh that’s exactly a year ago when my left her earthly body and joined my father in the world of eternity.

I remember September 3, 2008 around 6 o’clock in the morning when woke up with tears flowing from my eyes. It was so dramatic, so intense that my heartbeat was so fast that I can hardly catch it. Then I rose and grabbed my cup and took some water to drink. I sat in the corner blankly. I don’t know why I was feeling and reacting that way.

Few minutes after, our youngest brother called me sobbing. I then understand the connection of my tears when my brother delivered a shocking news that our mom was rushed to the nearest hospital due to stroke. Tears just kept on flowing like a river. I wanted to go right away but I’m out of cash so I find my ways to generate cash so that I can catch the latest trip back to Negros, living my ailing mom under the care of our eldest sister, Bernadith and youngest brother, Joven.

Improving your Personality

Happiness is a choice. If you wanted to be happy then stay happy. Is it very hard to be happy? Why people stay to be lonely and look at things in a twisted way?

As I browsed over the internet I found some of the factual and real reasons why people are so unhappy with their lives. I would like to share this tidbits to you with high hopes that this will help my readers in one way or another.

1. Don’t compare your life to others’. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
2. Don’t have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
3. Don’t over do. Keep your limits.
4. Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
5. Don’t waste your precious energy on gossip.
6. Dream more while you are awake.
7. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
8. Forget issues of the past. Don’t remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
9. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don’t hate others.
10. Make peace with your past so it won’t spoil the present.
11. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
12. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
13. Smile and laugh more.
14. You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

My Own

Been searching all my life.
Wandering and lost.
Trying to find an answer
Will I can find someone to call mine?

Unexpectedly our paths cross
Without saying a word
We just stared
And gave each others a grin.

From then on
I long to see you
More and more
I think of you…

Now I finally knew
In you, my heart
Find an answer..
So, care to be mine?

Every woman’s dream

Let me quote Viktor Frankl, think-tank of logotherapy and author saying “For the first time in my life I saw the truth as it is set into songs but so many poets, proclaimed as the highest wisdom of so many thinkers. But the truth is LOVE is ultimate goal to which man can aspire.” Indeed, to love and be loved in return is everyone’s dream. Who do you think don’t like the feeling or love or being loved? Even the wealthiest or the poorest of the poor person in the world is yearning for LOVE.

But does love ends? Honestly, for some yes. But for others it adds another chapter of their lives. Love if it is destined for two individuals living as one brings them to a different level of union. That is the sacrament of matrimony.

Ask me not

Don’t ask the sun to always shine;
It can’t! The night exists.
Don’t ask the stars to always glitter;
They can’t! The clouds exist.

Don’t ask the sea not to be rough;
It can’t! For the wind blows.
Don’t ask for spring always;
The winter awaits to unfold.

Don’t ask the birds to always fly;
They can’t! For they need rest.
Don’t ask the beautiful flowers not to wither;
They can’t! The others should bloom.

And don’t ask me not to fall in love;
I can’t! Because YOU exist!

Composed on
Oct 30, 2001 10:00am @ the CCBO

The Spell

It was a gloomy Monday evening
When you find me looking for a refuge.
I feel my adrenalin rushing
Something odd and strange struggles to get through
From the depth of my soul
As I go with you.

Things happen so swiftly
just like a flash of a lightning.
So quick; so intense.
That strikes me from deep within

Then there was a magical moment
I was in a deep trance
As I was under
your hypnotic spell.

I was deeply mesmerized
When I caught myself
finds its solace In you loving arms.
Your smooth palm caresses me.

I stare at your gleaming eyes
As if they wanted to speak
the unspeakable words of love.
the spell intensifies.

I thought the spell will cease
sooner or later.
But I was fervently wrong.
For it gets a whole lot stronger.
hundred folds of that of Samson

The spell…..
That makes me fall in love….

Composed on
Oct 19, 2001; 9:52 am
@ the house

Twilight

I sat in an uneven boulder
My feet gently soaked
in its pristine waters.
The breeze
Making its crystal clear
Waters to splash
Soothing me
With much tranquility
I enjoyed watching
As beautifully colored
fishes doing their tricks.
Then I noticed
The ebb getting weaker.
Reaching the shoreline
No more.
Exposing the watery
sand craving
to see the sunlight
But the sun had just
Set in the west
“twas twilight.

Composed on
Oct 29,2001 6:00 PM @ CCPort